Day Seven!!!!!!!

Day Seven...

...*sighs*... can't believe I did it!lol.. but I did... yayy!!! I actually committed to doing something and followed through :-)

I already had my final post mapped out... I was gonna post some of my favorite inspirational quotes... But I had to go to an AA (yes, Alcoholics Anons) meeting today... And it was like wow.. I just had to write about it...

Like first of all, I'd like to say, Thank God I'm not an alcoholic! At least not anymore..haha. But really though. (Sober/Non-alcoholic) People take a lot for granted. The people at the meeting (most of them) were like so strong and encouraging to each other (the others were just... well, creepy..lol)

I also like the fact that they acknowledge the fact that the problem is bigger than they are, and that they need a 'higher power' (God) to overcome it. They said the Lord's Prayer at the end too, which wowed me... (It's like are they Christian? I thought drinking to oblivion wasn't condoned in the Bible... But whom am I to judge? I need to go read my Bible even..lol) But yea, I think the program works because they support each other, kind of like 'All for one and one for all"... The people were also soo nice (even though I couldn't wait to leave from the minute I got there..haha.. kinda too touchy, feely for me..) I met some of the friendliest people I've come across this year... no joke.

All in all it was an okay experience. I was thinkings about sharing some personal stories that were inspired by 'the bottle'... but um, i changed my mind...hahahhahaha.

But on a serious note alcohol (or any other kind of substance for that matter) abuse is a really serious problem. DO NOT GET INVOLVED IN IT... Just SAY NO. and in the event/case you're already mixed up in that ish, get out ASAP. Not only is it not a good look (on all levels) its extremely dangerous, and if you can't quit by yourself, get help, you will be better for it..

Anyways.. Goodnight!! Have to go work now (the story of my life...mwah!)

sober&sexy

o.a.o

Day SIXXXXXX!!!!!!

Day six...

Okay, so I couldn’t go to sleep last night (have a bad case of insomnia), and ended up writing a bit of today’s post instead… Just so it’s clear, whilst the topic of this post might seem a tad personal, it’s not. It was should I say ‘inspired’? (lol). okay that’s the wrong word… the thoughts about/on it were stirred up by a ‘story’ someone told me a couple weeks back. And I randomly remembered it last night… so yea, it’s not about anyone in particular (at least no one was on my mind (to the awareness of my conscious self…lol) as this was being written. So here goes;

Little bit of ‘granny’ advice for the day. Be careful whom you let into your life. Seriously. You might think it doesn’t really matter and that whatever happens, happens but it does matter. I personally (lol- sounds so serious) have been fortunate enough to have a bunch of people that I can truly say that I’ve been blessed to have met. Some of these people I am in constant contact with, others I’m estranged from at the moment (due to distance woes among other things) but all the same, I can not think of a single bad or negative influence these people have (intentionally) had on my life, and in the case/event that something might have transpired, I know it was all love and that they didn’t mean to hurt me.

On the other hand, there are some people that… you know how when peoples be falling in love they say, “God bless the day I met you”, these people make me feel like the day I met them was cursed! Haha.. they make me think like WTF.. like, they may make you like happy for a bit, and everything may seem to be 'all gravy', then they flip the script and you’re like miserable when you think about em. Some are more subtle than others, like with the way they handle their B.S.. I mean some people be using you, and they let you know, or rather they don’t try to hide it as much so if you have an inkling of common sense you can tell that they aint right. Other people try to hide or ‘code’ it… this kind of people I can’t stand.. just be straight/upfront about it. I mean, you wont like everyone. You’re gonna have issues with some people, and if I happen to be one of those people, cool. I mean be civil about it, don’t be nasty to me. But at the same time, don’t pretend like you like me, and then go and talk trash behind my back, you know what I’m saying. I mean, there are people I don’t like/get along with for various reasons (mostly cos I think they are dodgy or maybe they hurt me and I still aint over that yet) but they will never know/feel it. Not because I’m pretending like I like them, but because I’m being civil about it. Like how do I explain it- if I was crazy about you before, you would probably feel it, cos I won’t be as enthusasic, but if I never had the chance to get crazy about you, you’d think everything was normal. I don’t know, it may not be good, but whatever, it’s the way I am. :-p

Oh, and I'm weird in the way I just be switching up on people, like I maybe hot or cold depending on the weather (haha) but in most cases (when the person is right) its me, like i maybe going through something... so like i said, this aint me 100% but i'm just saying..

Anywayssss.. I’m tired now… My head hurts (hence the post ceased to make sense towards the end..lol) going to study.. yayy me!!!. one more day ‘till the week’s up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tired, but still sexy

~o.a.o~

Day FIVE

Day five...

still aint got sh*t to say... okay i do.. but i don't feel like writing it on here... i'm too lazy/can't be bothered... let's just say some people be taking the piss... but i aint gonna say nothing... at least not just yet. but when i do....hmm...

today was not bad... slept for the most part..lol.. only to wake up to find that my show ('ugly betty') isnt on tonight... :-( sucks mehn.. Damn ABC.. oh well...

in other random news..(lol) i just found out that i'm agoraphobic and that i have social anxiety disorder...(google em if you aint know what they is)... that sucks too, for the most part... but i don't know... guess i may have to go to therapy or something (anyone want be my therapist/know any good ones?lol)

well i've blabbed for long enough..(don't you think?)... going back to sleep now, (cos Lord knows the next time I will be able to sleep for longer than three hours..) Day five... two more posts to make a week of non stop posting... so even if i quit now (which i don't plan on doing) i'll have a score of 5/7 or 71.4% which aint half bad, if you think about it... anyways y'all... toodles..

(ps: really sorry if this post don't sound as upbeat or enthusiastic as i would like.. had a rough couple of days.. and i'm just not in the mood... my bad! will endeavor to snap out of it soonish)

~still sexy~

o.a.0

Day FOUR!!!

Day four...

I'm actually doing this....lol.. Still aint got much to say.. :-( today was... just there... was highly stressful... :-( just got home and its like 30-minutes to midnight, so you can only imagine... the kind of day i had...*sighs*

ANYWAYSsss...lol.. um, i'm mad tired... but i can't sleep... insomnia is a biatchh!!! lol... oh yea, my phone died on me today... and like i was phoneless for about four hours... but i didn't really feel it... guess i'm getting over my 'crackberry' addiction!! yayy me..haha

Its going to be friday in a bit... and I will be able to chill... well kinda.. so yea, i will try to write about something 'substantial'.. anyways, anyways, anyways.. i'm going to do something... will holla!!!

sexy~sexy

.oao.

Day three

Day 3...

Wow... I'm surprised... I'm actually doing this.. almost half way to a week..lol!

Um, still aint got non' to say really.. oh, yea, Amanda got kicked off the show last night... Chick is looking good btw.. (talking bout the biggest loser tv show, in case you aint know).. really wanted her to stay, but i think the other contestants were 'playing the game', and she had mad potential to win.. oh well..lol

Um, what else can I say... I've got about 40 minutes until this post would be too late (i really need to work on procrastinating and leaving things until the last minute, but i guess it's better late than never, right?) I don't even have time to think, cos there's a million different things I need to do tonight, doubt I will get any sleep.. :-(

Anyways, I promise to try to get something interesting to write about, like I've got a lot on my mind... like stuff to say and ish, some of which may actually be sensible..lol.. but it takes time for me to put my thoughts into a logical sequence, time i aint really got these days... Have 5 chapters to read before tmrw (for 3 courses) and 3 papers to write.. so yea, you get me? lol

Gotta GO!!! ttyl.. wish me luck with my work..

forever~sexy

.oao.

Day 2

Okay, so day two...lol

Aint got much to write today... Oh, yeah, I got (one of) the bestest, bestest (lol) compliments this morning, so my day started on a good note.. :-) would say what it was... but nah, think i'll keep this one to myself *grins* makes it all the more special.

Anyways, like i said, aint got much to say... Watching my tuesday-night show right now (multi-tasking..I suck at this..), 'the biggest loser'...lol.. (Love Jillian.. think she's well cool, she's like the reason I watch the show.. Bob aint bad either, just a lil' bit too 'different' for my taste, but i love him all the same..) But yea, they about to send some one off 'the ranch' and the suspense is killing me..lol....

When I'm done watching this joint, have to go do work.. Yayy!!! NOT.lol.. Its almost the end of the semester though, so I guess it aint that bad... Getting close to crunch time.. work, work, work.. Need to focus on the 'reward'... two weeks off, before I gotta do it again..*sighs*

Anyways.. back to the biggest loser.. its down to Amanda or Liz... who'll go home?? hmm.... I don't even know who I want to leave! Will let you know who leaves (yea, like you really care..lol-don't know anyone else who watches the show..) Okay, now I really gotta go! ttyl.

...the ever sexy...

~*oao*~

Everyone deserves a second chance/My Top 5

Okay, so I kinda messed up..-was supposed to post something everyday for a week, but like, i've been like too lazy/not in the mood... lol. So i'm starting again, giving myself a second chance.. So one week of committed daily writing... Let's go!

Anyways... I have nothing (serious) to talk about(shocker!lol).. so i shall babel... (as always).. I'll make this post about music. Five songs from my current playlist... Here goes;

1. Maxwell's 'Bad Habit'

This song makes me smile every time I hear it, think its even better than pretty wings. I've always been a Maxwell fan, and I was kinda skeptical bout his new album, cos I didn't think he could top his previous stuff, but i think he did, at least with this song.

2. Letoya's 'Regret' featuring Ludacris

'.. He don't deserve you, he gon' regret that he hurt you.." loves LUDA!lol... and LeToya's a good singer too. So yea, thats song number-two.

3. 50 cent's 'Baby by Me' featuring Neyo

I know most people would be shocked- "what? oao listens to rap??"lol.. jokes.. but yea, Not a big 50 fan but I can't lie, I love this new song, maybe cos my second 'baby daddy'- (Neyo)- is on it.. but i'm loving it still- can't say i'll like his whole album, but song aint half bad.. and he put Kelly R. in the video, giving her an opportunity to 'shine'-lol... So yea, he did good on that front too.

4. Amerie's 'Why R U'

Amerie! Chick is the hotness.. And her music is not that bad either. Her first album was good... second.. not so much, but it looks like she's back on game with this one.. She tried.. Two thumbs up!lol

5. Pleasure P's 'Under'

This song is dedicated (lol) to 'you'!- don't let it be said that I don't keep my promises... ha!

But yea, I think Pleasure P is hot (his music, anyways). I know this song is kinda old, but still homeboy did his thing, and it has the potential to be a 'classic'..

'And there you have it'. lol. My top five songs of the moment (the ones that came to my mind), just thought to share that with y'all. :-) I shall try to come up with more blog-worthy/interesting material for my next post. Until the next time I write/attempt to write (i.e. tomorrow-hopefully). Bye!

still sexy

~*~o.a.o~*~

ps: Yea, i know i said i was gonna do top-5 songs, but dammit I forgot my favorite, favorite song... Like if there was a number before number one, this song would be it. Y'all can think about it as a kinda 'bonus' track.. its Trey Songz's 'Invented Sex' featuring Drake... I aint gotta say too much (lol) just that it makes me happy EVERY single time it comes on, like i was so infatuated with it, that i had a special dance to the whole song...(lame, i know, but oh well...lol) maybe if you're nice to me I'll show you some time ;-) lol.. ROTFL... Anywayzz..(lol) even though I don't really like Trey (think he's a five-year-old-looking knock off version of R.Kelly) this song is awesome! (here's the 'R-Rated' version of the video..so yea..) enojy :-)

grown vs. girly partI

okay, so like one of my boo’s my bad, my husband (lol) posted my previous post as a note on his facebook, and like people were commenting about it making generalizations and what not. Yes, it is kinda generalizing for the most part (also people need to understand that I did not write it, was only regurgitating something I had read), but I agree with the post for the most part. Almost everything on there is true, but at the same time the comments got me thinking,… those ‘generalizations’/attitude/beliefs would NOT work for every male. Just as there’s a distiction between girls and grown women, there’s also a distinction between a boy and a grown man. Like the way a ‘grown’ woman would relate with man would be different from how she’d relate with a boy, you know what I mean. (in the first place why would a grown woman be with a boy? Hmm… But that’s a topic for another day...) but yea, the sad part is that most of the guys you find these days are boys, who think they’re men for some weird reason… *sighs*… I find this quite funny btw but I shant be going into this topic today, because I am sick of ‘man-hating’ plus like the previous post implies, a grown woman doesn’t generalize and put all men into one big fat ugly box, based on the actions of one or two (or maybe even more) trifling-ass guys…

This post was kinda impromptu, (if you hadn’t guessed) and based on the feedback/reaction/vibes I got of the comments hubby’s note which got me to thinking. Its all good though, cos what I had lined up for today was about females- I decided not to write about ‘rhi-rhi’ and chris today, I mean, they were the topic of the last post before my hiatus…lol- but yea.. I was going to write about how some girls don’t know how to act, and was actually going to, for once, put females (including myself) on blast in regards to how they act when people are tryna talk to them and the whole pre-relationship/early relationship ish… but oh well, guess I’ll have to save that for another day, maybe tomorrow (I’m going to try to write everyday for a week, to see if I can actually commit to and stick with doing something!lolz). Anyways, I need to get back to work! In bio lab at the moment, waiting for some gel to run…

always grown and sexy

o.a.o

ps: my friend is involved with a new magazine, (which I shall talk more about in another post) and asked me to guest write!!! I’m really excited about it, now if only I could think of a topic… hmm…. I need inspiration people!!! Help! Haha..xxx

hey y'all!!

okay i know i've been absent for a loooong ass time. Been mad busy with school, life and everything in between. But in a way its good, because the other day I learned that its like a psychological disorder (well, almost) when people blog too much. haha. I'm serious though, can't remember what its called.. On the other hand, blogging is good for me, cos it creates an outlet for me to let people in to my very guarded mind...haha- okay now i'm bullshitting, but its good for me because i like to write, it's like therapeutic for me.

ANYWAYS... to commemorate my semi-return to the blogging scene, i decided to post something that was sent to me by someone extremely dear and close to my heart (love ya boo!) i think it is so very true and that the world would be a much better place if most females acted grown, as opposed to girly... Here goes..

Somebody sent this to me... "Are you a 'girlie' or a grown woman"? 

basically, it just compares and contrasts the thoughts and actions of females, classifying some as 'girlie' and others as 'grown' (and sexy, like me!lol)

Girls want to control the man in their lives
Grown women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need controlling; 

Girls check you for not calling them
Grown women are too busy to realize you haven't called;

Girls are afraid to be alone
Grown women revel in being alone, using it as time for personal growth;

Girls ignore the good guys
Grown women ignore the bad guys;

Girls make you come home
Grown women make you want to come home;

Girls leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to call and make plans
Grown women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to fit in where he fits in; 

Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.
Grown women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man;

Girls try to monopolize all their man's time(i.e. don't want him hanging out with his friends)
Grown women realize that a little bit of space makes 'together time' even more special and goes and kicks it with her own friends;

Girls think a guy crying is weak
Grown women offer their shoulder and a tissue;

Girls want to be spoiled and tell their man an much.
Grown women 'show' him and make him comfortable enough to understand her needs without the fear of losing his 'manhood';

Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay
Grown women know that was just one man;

Girls fall in love and chase aimlessly after the object of their affection, ignoring all 'signs' and reason
Grown women know that sometimes the one you love, don't always love you back-and move on without bitterness;

Girls will read this and get an attitude.
Grown women will read this and pass it on to other Grown women as well their male friends.

So Ladies, which are you?????

Well, I'm proud to say I'm grown :-) lol.. there as some parts that i need working on though, like to strengthen, but for the most part, i'm not girly! yayy me!!lol

anyways... i've got to go do something now... have my next post lined up though (in my head... its proly gonna be 'bout my take on the whole Rhianna vs. Chris B. media battle/saga or something, will def. keep y'all posted!). 

oh, and i'm sorry if this post seems illogical or incoherent... haven't blogged in a minute- need to get my mojo back (lol) and i'm in a hurry- late (as usual..) for an appointment... 

the even sexier

o*a*o

ps: this song is dedicated to my boo! luv ya babe (hope you like it)

...un jour à la fois...

..."one day at a time"… I know I haven't written in a while.. and while I wish this wasn’t the case, it is and apologizing or beating myself up about it wont make a difference… lol… Although I know that its true, I'm still kinda sorry to have left y’all hanging with no prior warning, that is very bad blogger etiquette.

Now that apologies have been taken care of, the reason for my hiatus? Life. No really, I’ve been dealing with and sorting out a lot of things much to the neglect of my little blog… and most people would probably think, “Great, you’ve been going through stuff- good resource for material to put up” right? Wrong? Lol.. its not the kind of stuff I feel like sharing on hare, especially not at the moment, maybe later when it’s all resolved I will indulge y’all in a little bit of the gist, but whilst I’m still working things out… I’ll have to be quiet for now anyways.

 

Okay so what to write in the absence of ‘real life’ stuff..? well summer school is over now (I think the last time I posted something I was in physics class..lol) thing is that non-summer school started two weeks ago (guess I have been gone for longer than a minute, huh?). Hmmm… I guess I’ll just talk about random stuff.. So like did anyone see Chris Breezy’s interview on CNN last night?? I didn’t get to see it yet… doubt I even will at all (can't stand Brown) but heard the interview was wack… Like I think dude needs to go somewhere for a long time and come back when people have forgotten about the whole woman bashing incident… say in about 20 years? He just needs to shut up and keep a low profile.. and he’s trying to say he still loves Rhianna… He’s not afraid.. How the hell does a guy beat up a female he claims to love or have feelings for? How does a guy lay his hands on a woman period? You know what? I don’t even want to know, because there is no acceptable explanation. None. So what if she cheated (not that Ri-ri did… I’m just saying) was over-possessive, promiscuous, irritating, rude… whatever. Homie shoulda known all this before he went out with her, and if he didn’t tough. Guess someone didn’t do their homework.

At the same time, you could say that why would a girl go out with such an individual, like someone who harbored such violent tendencies towards women? Well, for one, I could say maybe she didn’t know, plus like women like to believe the best about people so maybe even if she knew, she thought he would change?? I don’t know! I’m just speculating, rationalizing, trying to come up with a theory. I feel like actions are more easily controlled than feelings.. Like Rhianna maybe couldn’t help the fact that she felt for him, and he couldn’t the fact that he had aggressive thoughts towards her (lol), however he could have made a choice not to hit her or to do her face in… he could have adopted some kind of defense mechanism, such as repression, projection, displacement, reaction formation or something!  That’s my thoughts on the issue at the moment anyways. Didn’t think I’d say so much on that, but oh well. Guess that’s my post for today. Haha. So the moral of the story is… do your homework people!.lol. and guys, it is unacceptable to beat up a woman, under any circumstances. If you feel she deserves a beat down, get another female to do it! :-)

 

~*~le_toujours_sexy~*~

.oao.