um...random(?)

Okay... So what to write about? hmm... I know I said I had a lot to talk about/get off my chest. But I haven't got the time to divulge. Got shits, I mean, stuff to do (gotta watch my potty mouth.. i'm starting to cuss too much) and plus I'm not in the mood/disposition to 'bare' my soul, so today i'm just going to 'coast' and write about nothing (too important)

So.... Has anyone seen Erykah Badu's ' Window Seat' video?? Dang that woman has got a booty on her...lol (sue me, i'm an 'ass girl', I am fascinated by and appreciate a good 'dunk' and she's got an awesome one) but seriously though, if you look beyond the nudity and try to get the message that she is trying to communicate, she's actually spot on. People do not readily accept individuality and they tend to adopt popular/conventional thought/belief and take it as it is given, with out taking the time out to think if it actually is right/wrong for them. Most human beings are confined to a box, and seldom exercise their right to thing outside of it.

Don't get me wrong, I think 'Group think', (the topic of the video), can be a good thing... imagine a world in which there were no laws/rules and people were allowed to do as they pleased/thought right... I mean, if everyone was like me (lol) the world would be a MUCH better place, it'd almost be like heaven on earth... But the reality is that there are a lot of twisted, psycho people out there, people whose moral compasses' are screwed and who would more likely than not fuck things up (Hitler/Bin Laden/etc)

People should not conform, they should exercise their creativity in ways that would help, not destroy or damage the world. I have been called a 'rebel' (lol-imagine, lil' ol' me..) because I refuse to do as told/expected (mostly cos i don't see the point/agree..lol.. other times cos i just can't be bothered) But i'm like, it's my life, i should be able to live it how i want, you know, without people judging my every move/decision.... Sure I may fuck up every now and then (okay most of the time..lol) I do appreciate it when people who truly love/care for me call me out on my bullshit- as in I'd probably be more screwed up without y'all.. but at the same time some people are just useless, with hurtful intentions... these people can like to.... yea. lol

So back to the video/song.... I think it takes major balls to strip like that, for real. and i applaud Ms. Badu for that. She's also very talented and shot the video in one shot, no retakes. My only 'qualm' is that she did it in the same place that JFK was like assassinated, and that might have been a tad disrespectful.. but i get it all the same. I love her though, been a fan ever since I can remember, and have you heard the woman speak, like in interviews and such? she really knows her stuff, no surprise her songs actually do say something and make sense..

Anyways, I'm out.. (this post was longer than i had anticipated for it to be).. need to go catch up on sleep now..lol. I will post a video of one of my fav. Badu songs.. 'Bag Lady'... I'm sure I will 'dissect' the song in a later post.. Oh and 'Tyrone' is another good song... Anyways, Enjoy!

*the very sexy 'rebel'*

oao

random... just for laughs...

Okay, I know, I haven't written in a bit... you know the drill, i'm sorry... life happens/happened... blah, blah.. i'm getting tired of my own excuses..*sighs* but oh well.. The real reason this time is that I've been in a mood (what's new, huh?lol) and haven't been assed to put nothing up... It sucks, I know.. But I'm learning to get over myself.. and not take things and people too seriously.. Anyways, I came across this (see below) recently, and it made me smile.. Hope it makes you smile too. :-D

(ps: promise, promise, promise to put something up tomorrow. I promise. Got some stuff on my chest that I gotta let out..hehe.xxx)

Here are some signs that you may not find anywhere else in the world except in Africa.



1. In a restaurant in Zambia:
'Open seven days a week and weekends.'
(May be in Zambia, a week has nine days!)

2. On the grounds of a private school in South Africa:
'No trespassing without permission.'
(Would it still be trespassing then?)

3. On a window of a Nigerian shop:
'Why go elsewhere to be cheated when you can come here?'
(Talk of freedom of choice of where to be cheated from!!!)

4. On a poster in Ghana:
'Are you an adult who cannot read? If so, we can help.'
(And how did they expect the person to read this?)

5. In a hotel in Mozambique:
'Visitors are expected to complain at the office between the hours of 9.00 am and 11.00am daily.'
(No complaint.. I am no whiner!!)

6. On a river in the Democratic Republic of Congo:
'Take note: When this sign is submerged, the river is impassable.'
(My foot!!! I won’t be able to read it when it is under water.)

7. In a Zimbabwean restaurant:
'Customers who find our waitresses rude ought to see the manager.'
(Who has the problem here??)

8. A sign seen on a hand dryer in a Lesotho public toilet:
'Risk of electric shock - Do not activate with wet hands.'
(No comment!!)

9. In a Botswana jewellers shop:
'Ears pierced while you wait..'
(No, I will collect my ears upon returning from the next shop!!!)

10. On one of the buildings of a Sierra Leone hospital:
'Mental Health Prevention Centre.'
(Risky! If mental health were prevented, tell me, would that nation not be full of lunatics??!! !)

11. In a maternity ward of a clinic in Tanzania:
'No children allowed!'
(Where should they be born?)

12. In a cemetery in Uganda:
'Persons are prohibited from picking flowers from any but their
graves'.
(Spooky!!)

13. In a Malawi hotel:
'It is forbidden to steal towels please. If you are not a person to
do such a thing, please don't read this notice.'
(Where in the world is stealing not forbidden?? By the way, I
have already read it though it's none of my business!!)

14. A sign posted in an Algerian tourist camping park:
'It is strictly forbidden on our camping site that people of
different sex, for instance a man and woman, live together
in one tent unless they are married to each other for that
purpose.'
(Some purposes are difficult to comprehend!! )

15. In a Namibian nightclub:
'Ladies are not allowed to have children in the bar.'
(Do men have children?)

16. In a photo studio in Chitungwiza ( Zimbabwe ):
'Photos taken while you wait '
(Ouch!!! Can I leave my face and collect the
photo later?)

Talk of reasoning!

Random reflection of moi...

Life... I intended to put something up yesterday; but due to... um, okay...... lol. well, something came up and I was unable to...

What am I gonna write about today... hmm... I'm in a bad mood.. well i was earlier (I'm good now:-) been in it for a minute too.. donno why neither.. But oh well, c'est la vie.. Just gotta learn how to deal with it, innit?

This post is going to be very self-revealing/random btw.. cos i'm in a random state of mind.......

I just realized/discovered what I want to be 'when I grow up'.. well one of the things anyways (random fact#1)- i aint gonna write it on here... cos its sure to stir up some controversy/make people think i'm all the more crazy than i am.. and we don't want that, do we?..lol

Um... what else.. I had written a blog post about how and why I don't like (most) people much, (you know the pathology of and reason behind my agoraphobia) but I can't find it right now :-( will look for it and post it soon as I find it.. It should make people understand me a lil' better, i hope... just a lil though..lol. (random fact #2)

Ummmmmmm... I cry sometimes (sometimes) for no reason... And I just figured out why.. (I think a lot..lol) its 'cause I bottle up/hide my emotions and 'feelings' and what-nots and keep it all inside; so when I cry its to let it all out; kinda like to empty my 'emotion bank' so that I can fill it up again with more crap and b.s... yayy me!!-lol- no really though, the system works quite well for me, and 'if it aint broke, dont fix it', right? (random fact#3)

Random fact #4... I'm scared of a lot of things..*blank stare*.. okay, I lie. I'm fearless like Jazmine Sullivan, bring on the lions and tigers and bears, i'll take em all.. at the same time even... I aint scurrrrred..lol. But somethings 'perplex' me though. In actual actuality, I used to be scared of only one thing, but then it happened, and happen again.. and again... and again... and (you get the point) so while it still hurts a tad, i'm kinda getting used to it... and i know that one day i shall be totally over it - random, i know..

Random fact #5 (and the final one for this post cos i feel like i done gone and wrote too much already..) i'm a very shy person...- SHOCKER!-lol Always have been, probably always will be.. many people think i'm a snub/stuck up bitch as a result.. but nah.. i'm just shy.. (usually, sometimes the latter two things maybe true, but only when called for...) hehe.

Just thought of at least two more random things, but will include em in a later post (not the next one, so 'stay tuned' and keep coming back if you wana find out... :-p

Anyways I'm out... Someone cooked me dinner tonight.. don't remember the last time that happened... and it actually looks good.. bout to go tear that joint up..lmao.. that sounded very 'local'... anyways.. peace y'all. will be putting somn up tmrw... peace! :-)

...the random but still sexy...

oao

Still grown and sexy...

Okay, I know I've been m.i.a for a hott ass minute (more like a blazing hour.. geddit?lol) and i won't be surprised if no one even reads this anymore :-( (-not like very many people did in the first place..) but yea, it's been really and truly my bad. I thought I needed to take time of from a lot of things (including blog) to find out where my head was at and position and point it in the right direction, so I made an attempt (unsuccessful though it was) to do so. However, I never stopped writing- cos "its my therapy when I'm losing sleep, which is usually.." (I'll pay money to anyone who can tell me what song thats from...)

Anyways, yea, I'd put up some of the stuff I wrote, but its like too 'deep' (shocking!-lol) yes, oao has a deep/sentimental side to her much as she tries to hide it... (yea, i'm speaking of myself in the third person... and what?!lol) Moving onnn..lol.. I think I missed 'blogging', and so here I am! (like Rick Ross and Avery Storm said..haha-okay need to stop with lame jokes..) And even if no one reads (i really hope people DO READ this though.. :-) I'll keep on keeping on...

Okay... I gotta go do something right now.. And I know this post didn't really communicate much in terms of facts and stuff..lol..(i like to speak English)... Let's just say it's my intro/announcement of my return!! I shall put up some more 'substantial' stuff soonest.x

~still sexy~

.oao.

Happy Thanksgivin'

Happy (belated) Thanksgiving!!!

Just a quick one… 10 things I’m thankful for; I know it’s a tad late, but couldn’t put anything up yesterday, was too busy cooking/eating/sleeping… but yea, here goes;

1. The fact that I have God in my life…lol(gotta put God first y’all)
2. My family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3. My friends… I may not have a lot, but quality sure beats quantity…lol.. and even though I may not show it all/most of the time (cause I’m weird like that), I love y’all. :-)
4. The fact that the semester’s about to be done, and that His Grace has brought me thus far, and will take me all the way- AMEN! (lol- cos it certainly hasn’t been easy)
5. For ‘clarity’- ‘nuff said…
6. Being grown and sexy and hott and all that other good stuff
7. The gym!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8. Good food. aka (dark) chocolate :-)
9. Tyrese (and Tyrese jr. aka my cuddy buddy..lol) and all those other fine specimen of men that melt my heart every time i look at them (Taye Diggs, Lance Bass, Morris Chestnut, Boris Kodjoe, Jeremy Piven and Maxwell are a few that come to mind..)
10. And finally I'm thankful for ‘progress’... as well as all the mistakes I done made…

And there you have it, the first ten things that came to my mind… (‘cause there’s way more things to be thankful for) What are YOU thankful for?? Take some time out from complaining (which I feel like I do too much) and find a few things to be thankful for… oh yea, one more random thing; CHRISTMAS DÉCOR!!! That joint gets me excited every time… holly, mistletoe, Christmas trees, lights, wreaths… everything! I love em.. haha.. Anyways, Happy Holidays y’all!! (and I’m also thankful for this blog… :-D

*Thankfully grown and sexy*

.oao.

Day Seven!!!!!!!

Day Seven...

...*sighs*... can't believe I did it!lol.. but I did... yayy!!! I actually committed to doing something and followed through :-)

I already had my final post mapped out... I was gonna post some of my favorite inspirational quotes... But I had to go to an AA (yes, Alcoholics Anons) meeting today... And it was like wow.. I just had to write about it...

Like first of all, I'd like to say, Thank God I'm not an alcoholic! At least not anymore..haha. But really though. (Sober/Non-alcoholic) People take a lot for granted. The people at the meeting (most of them) were like so strong and encouraging to each other (the others were just... well, creepy..lol)

I also like the fact that they acknowledge the fact that the problem is bigger than they are, and that they need a 'higher power' (God) to overcome it. They said the Lord's Prayer at the end too, which wowed me... (It's like are they Christian? I thought drinking to oblivion wasn't condoned in the Bible... But whom am I to judge? I need to go read my Bible even..lol) But yea, I think the program works because they support each other, kind of like 'All for one and one for all"... The people were also soo nice (even though I couldn't wait to leave from the minute I got there..haha.. kinda too touchy, feely for me..) I met some of the friendliest people I've come across this year... no joke.

All in all it was an okay experience. I was thinkings about sharing some personal stories that were inspired by 'the bottle'... but um, i changed my mind...hahahhahaha.

But on a serious note alcohol (or any other kind of substance for that matter) abuse is a really serious problem. DO NOT GET INVOLVED IN IT... Just SAY NO. and in the event/case you're already mixed up in that ish, get out ASAP. Not only is it not a good look (on all levels) its extremely dangerous, and if you can't quit by yourself, get help, you will be better for it..

Anyways.. Goodnight!! Have to go work now (the story of my life...mwah!)

sober&sexy

o.a.o

Day SIXXXXXX!!!!!!

Day six...

Okay, so I couldn’t go to sleep last night (have a bad case of insomnia), and ended up writing a bit of today’s post instead… Just so it’s clear, whilst the topic of this post might seem a tad personal, it’s not. It was should I say ‘inspired’? (lol). okay that’s the wrong word… the thoughts about/on it were stirred up by a ‘story’ someone told me a couple weeks back. And I randomly remembered it last night… so yea, it’s not about anyone in particular (at least no one was on my mind (to the awareness of my conscious self…lol) as this was being written. So here goes;

Little bit of ‘granny’ advice for the day. Be careful whom you let into your life. Seriously. You might think it doesn’t really matter and that whatever happens, happens but it does matter. I personally (lol- sounds so serious) have been fortunate enough to have a bunch of people that I can truly say that I’ve been blessed to have met. Some of these people I am in constant contact with, others I’m estranged from at the moment (due to distance woes among other things) but all the same, I can not think of a single bad or negative influence these people have (intentionally) had on my life, and in the case/event that something might have transpired, I know it was all love and that they didn’t mean to hurt me.

On the other hand, there are some people that… you know how when peoples be falling in love they say, “God bless the day I met you”, these people make me feel like the day I met them was cursed! Haha.. they make me think like WTF.. like, they may make you like happy for a bit, and everything may seem to be 'all gravy', then they flip the script and you’re like miserable when you think about em. Some are more subtle than others, like with the way they handle their B.S.. I mean some people be using you, and they let you know, or rather they don’t try to hide it as much so if you have an inkling of common sense you can tell that they aint right. Other people try to hide or ‘code’ it… this kind of people I can’t stand.. just be straight/upfront about it. I mean, you wont like everyone. You’re gonna have issues with some people, and if I happen to be one of those people, cool. I mean be civil about it, don’t be nasty to me. But at the same time, don’t pretend like you like me, and then go and talk trash behind my back, you know what I’m saying. I mean, there are people I don’t like/get along with for various reasons (mostly cos I think they are dodgy or maybe they hurt me and I still aint over that yet) but they will never know/feel it. Not because I’m pretending like I like them, but because I’m being civil about it. Like how do I explain it- if I was crazy about you before, you would probably feel it, cos I won’t be as enthusasic, but if I never had the chance to get crazy about you, you’d think everything was normal. I don’t know, it may not be good, but whatever, it’s the way I am. :-p

Oh, and I'm weird in the way I just be switching up on people, like I maybe hot or cold depending on the weather (haha) but in most cases (when the person is right) its me, like i maybe going through something... so like i said, this aint me 100% but i'm just saying..

Anywayssss.. I’m tired now… My head hurts (hence the post ceased to make sense towards the end..lol) going to study.. yayy me!!!. one more day ‘till the week’s up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tired, but still sexy

~o.a.o~

Day FIVE

Day five...

still aint got sh*t to say... okay i do.. but i don't feel like writing it on here... i'm too lazy/can't be bothered... let's just say some people be taking the piss... but i aint gonna say nothing... at least not just yet. but when i do....hmm...

today was not bad... slept for the most part..lol.. only to wake up to find that my show ('ugly betty') isnt on tonight... :-( sucks mehn.. Damn ABC.. oh well...

in other random news..(lol) i just found out that i'm agoraphobic and that i have social anxiety disorder...(google em if you aint know what they is)... that sucks too, for the most part... but i don't know... guess i may have to go to therapy or something (anyone want be my therapist/know any good ones?lol)

well i've blabbed for long enough..(don't you think?)... going back to sleep now, (cos Lord knows the next time I will be able to sleep for longer than three hours..) Day five... two more posts to make a week of non stop posting... so even if i quit now (which i don't plan on doing) i'll have a score of 5/7 or 71.4% which aint half bad, if you think about it... anyways y'all... toodles..

(ps: really sorry if this post don't sound as upbeat or enthusiastic as i would like.. had a rough couple of days.. and i'm just not in the mood... my bad! will endeavor to snap out of it soonish)

~still sexy~

o.a.0

Day FOUR!!!

Day four...

I'm actually doing this....lol.. Still aint got much to say.. :-( today was... just there... was highly stressful... :-( just got home and its like 30-minutes to midnight, so you can only imagine... the kind of day i had...*sighs*

ANYWAYSsss...lol.. um, i'm mad tired... but i can't sleep... insomnia is a biatchh!!! lol... oh yea, my phone died on me today... and like i was phoneless for about four hours... but i didn't really feel it... guess i'm getting over my 'crackberry' addiction!! yayy me..haha

Its going to be friday in a bit... and I will be able to chill... well kinda.. so yea, i will try to write about something 'substantial'.. anyways, anyways, anyways.. i'm going to do something... will holla!!!

sexy~sexy

.oao.

Day three

Day 3...

Wow... I'm surprised... I'm actually doing this.. almost half way to a week..lol!

Um, still aint got non' to say really.. oh, yea, Amanda got kicked off the show last night... Chick is looking good btw.. (talking bout the biggest loser tv show, in case you aint know).. really wanted her to stay, but i think the other contestants were 'playing the game', and she had mad potential to win.. oh well..lol

Um, what else can I say... I've got about 40 minutes until this post would be too late (i really need to work on procrastinating and leaving things until the last minute, but i guess it's better late than never, right?) I don't even have time to think, cos there's a million different things I need to do tonight, doubt I will get any sleep.. :-(

Anyways, I promise to try to get something interesting to write about, like I've got a lot on my mind... like stuff to say and ish, some of which may actually be sensible..lol.. but it takes time for me to put my thoughts into a logical sequence, time i aint really got these days... Have 5 chapters to read before tmrw (for 3 courses) and 3 papers to write.. so yea, you get me? lol

Gotta GO!!! ttyl.. wish me luck with my work..

forever~sexy

.oao.