shiver-ing, tongue deliver-ing chills up that spine
that ass is mines. skip the wine and the candlelight
no cristal tonight, if it's alright with you we ......"
"The whole, city is mine, prettiest don
I don't like the way P. Diddy did shyne with different lawyers
Why it's mentioned in my rhymes? Fuck it, it's just an intro
Hate it or love it. Like it, bump it or dump it"
LOL.. Y'all probably know where the first one is from.. but the second.. hmm.. I will personally deliver a prize to whoever figures it out.. Nah, scratch that.. Cos there's 'google'.. Anyways.. was listening to them songs and decided to write some of my favorite lines.. SUE ME.. Now to the topic du jour....
Okay.. So wait, you're supposed to forgive and forget.. give second chances.. is it really possible to let ish go when people treat you wrong.. like do you really forget? like really, really? I don't. I remember that ish. I may forgive based on the intention(s) behind the action(s).. but at the end of the day... its difficult to forget, for me anyways. in a way it's a good thing..lol.. (not really, but i'm going to justify myself, damnit!!lol) It's a good thing, because if i do 'forget' (which would be highly unlikely as i remember a lot of things i shouldn't) it simply means that the person is 'dead to me'.. like i would care less about them. loll.. Damn..
The way i work is, when i forgive, i cant help but remember the pain/hurt... but at the same time, i let it go. I use the person's fuck up as a bench mark with which i would compare the persons reformed performance...lol.. (i think i forgot the point i was tryna make)... But yea, I really want to learn to forgive and forget without anything else to it. I need someone to 'teachme'.. Oh well, i'll add that to the list of things i need to learn.
Like to me, the concept of forgetting can be likened to the incidence of a child putting his hand in fire/gets burned or whatever, and then completely forgets about the pain, and does it again.. Wouldn't you call that child dumb or stupid? Or at best mentally challenged or slow? I'm like that child in a way, only I'm wiser (lol).. I get burned.. I'm scared of or avoid fire for a while.. After that while, I may still 'play' with fire, but I'll know that there is a very high likelihood that that jawn will injure me. I think knowing or anticipating makes the pain less.. Because sometimes, the reason it hurts so much is cos you didn't see it coming, so the shock only amplifies the pain..?
Okay... I started talking (or writing) off point again.. I think I need to go now..... Yes, I do realize I haven't written anything in a while (over a month now) and it's cos of this... I get something good to write about.. start writing and then half way through I get lost or stuck.. *sigh* .. oh well. C'est la vie, right? I will overcome.
Okay, so i finally decided to stop procrastinating and work on this diet/fitness post.. Yayy me.. Part of or the main reason I decided to get off my arse and do it was to hopefully motivate myself in the process of writing it (there's a psychological term for this which escapes my conscious thought right now..damn.lol) but yea. Here goes..
It's summer time, the sun is out and its time to bring out them bikinis and skimpy bathing suits. Thing is not every body is summer ready.. Some bodies need a little tweak/work.lol. Sike.. That's bs and a load of crap. If you're tryna lose weight or get ripped, do it for personal/health reasons as opposed to 'its summer, i suppose' flex muscle for beach'.. haha
Basically what i'm going to do, (and i'll let y'all know if it works, cos like i said, i'm trying to change myself for 'health' (lol) reasons too), is watch what i eat (*coughs*) and try to do double time on my workouts. I have a goal, to lose a bunch of weight (say, about 50-60lbs)-lol. And to become well fit in the process.
My 'advice' lol to people tryna do the same thing would be to do cardio 3-5 times a week for 30-45 minutes each time. Cardio could be such exercises as walking/running/jogging or you could take any of the various aerobics classes available to you- those can be fun. Just be consistent. It also helps to do some form of resistance training a couple times a week. For extra 'conditioning' or toning.
On the diet side, cut out simple sugar, and uneccesary fats from the diet. Now, don't go and overdo it by cutting out carbs altogether, because carbs provide the body with energy needed to workout! An engine needs gas to run.. Protein is also extremely important, especially if you're trying to build muscle. You need about 1g of protein/kg of body weight (or if you do your weight in lbs, divide by 2 to get amount of grams of protein needed/day)- lol.. I know I sound like a nutrition geek right now.. But it's good, I should.. took a class on nutrition last semester.. Can't let all that good knowledge go to waste now, can we?.lol.
In conclusion, (lol) losing or gaining weight is all about getting the calorie balance/equation right. If you eat more than you burn, you will gain, if you eat less, you might lose. To maintain weight eat same as you burn. Also if you work with heavy weights frequently you will gain size/muscle (trust me, I know this from personal experience) So it's all about what you want. Decide what you want for your body, come up with a plan and work towards it. You are more than likely going to fuck up at some point. Don't beat yourself up about it, and don't use that as an excuse to quit (avoid the abstinence violation effect).
If you have any questions (lol) hit me up.. You can do so (lol) via twitter/facebook/bbm/email/sms text/telephone call… (haha- damn, i make myself laugh unnecessarily) anyways, yea, fitness is one of the few things that I am passionate about, so it will be a pleasure to answer any questions. Plus if there is anyway you think you could motivate/inspire ME more, please get at me and do so asap!!, it would be greatly appreciated and I would love you unconditionally for it… Because I won't lie, there are times when i don't feel like working out.. even though I know I should. And i can be the worst trash eater too.. Constantly in want of a workout/diet buddy, who would challenge and push me and also be like my sponsor (like in AA..) So yea, hollerrrr!haha
It's world cup season.. and world cup fever is 'catching' everyone..lol.. Even people who hate the sport and are clueless as to what the game is about are hosting viewing parties and tweeting about the game like they could play better..smh.lol! Anyways, yayy! soccer/football (whatever you want to call it), it's bringing the world together (lol) we need more of that.
This post is as random as the last one..lol.. Got a few emails that I thought were quite funny and was feeling nice enough to share... Here goes;
1. This one is titled,
'Advice for your significant other...ignore at your own risk. '
1. Between 11 June and 11 July 2010, you should read the sports section of the newspaper so that you are aware of what is going on regarding the World of Soccer, and that way you will be able to join in the conversations. If you fail to do this, then you will be looked at in a bad way, or you will be totally ignored. DO NOT complain about not receiving any attention.
2. During the World Cup, the television is mine, at all times, without any exceptions. If you even take a glimpse of the remote control, you will lose it (your eye).
3. If you have to pass by in front of the TV during a game, I don't mind, as long as you do it crawling on the floor and without distracting me.
4. During the games I will be blind, deaf and mute, unless I require a refill of my drink or something to eat. You are out of your mind if you expect me to listen to you, open the door, answer the telephone, or pick up the baby that just fell on the floor....It won't happen.
5. It would be a good idea for you to keep at least 2 six packs in the fridge at all times, as well as plenty of things to nibble on (excluding your body parts), and please do not make any funny faces to my friends when they come over to watch the games. In return, you will be allowed to use the TV between 12am and 6am, unless they replay a good game that I missed during the day.
6. Please, please, please!! If you see me upset because one of my team is losing, DO NOT say "get over it, it's only a game", or "don't worry, they'll win next time". If you say these things, you will only make me angrier and I will love you less. Remember, you will never ever know more about football than me and your so called "words of encouragement" will only lead to a break up or divorce.
7. You are welcome to sit with me to watch one game and you can talk to me during halftime but only when the commercials are on, and only if the half time scores is pleasing me. In addition, please note I am saying "one" game; hence do not use the World Cup as a nice cheesy excuse to "spend time together". 8. The replays of the goals are very important. I don't care if I have seen them or I haven't seen them, I want to see them again, Many times.
9. Tell your friends NOT to have any babies, or any other child related parties or gatherings that requires my attendance because: a) I will not go, b) I will not go, and c) I will not go.
10. But, if a friend of mine invites us to his house on a Sunday to watch a game, we will be there in a flash.
11. The daily World Cup highlights show on TV every night is just as important as the games themselves. Do not even think about saying "but you have already seen this...why don't you change the channel to something we can all watch?" because, the reply will be, "Refer to Rule #2 of this list".
12. And finally, please save your expressions such as "Thank God the World Cup is only every 4 years". I am immune to these words, because before and after this comes the Champions League,Premier League, Super 14, Spanish League, KPL, Grand Prix, Tri Nations, hell, even WrestleMania, etc.
P/S
By the way if you get stuck on the road call 911 or RAPID RESPONSE SQUAD cos I won’t pick my phone.
Ladies, follow these rules and I guarantee the love that ur significant other has for you will skyrocket within a month lol. Take advice from an crazed football fine like myself ;-) hehehe
Yea, right.. if you like call yourself my boyfriend and ignore your phone when i call/txt/bbm because the game was on... or say I can't watch any of my shows.. And we'll see what happens... Nonsense..lol
The second is a video dubbed 'The Worst Miss of the World Cup', and this miss was wonderfully performed by none other than one of Nigeria's finest, Yakubu Aiyegbeni, who apparently plays for Chelsea.. Hmm... Anyways, here's a video of his spectacular gaffe, that prevented Nigeria from going through to the next round and also cost the players their proposed $30,000 bonuses.. Shame on you Yakubu! Shame.. *sigh* then again, he wasn't the only player on the team, was he?
ps: the 'soundtrack' to the clip may get on your nerves (i think it's funny) so you may wanna turn the sound low/off...
Oh and did you see his face after the miss?? Hilarious.. Haha. I wonder what was running through his mind, and what I wanna know is how much he got paid by the other team to screw Nigeria up like that..lol. I'm not saying I could have done a better job (even though I'm sure i could..) but then again, I'm not getting paid to do so. And his fuck up was so incredible (lol) that the non-Nigerian coach had to put his hands on his head, classic 9ja style..lol.. I love soccer.
One more thing... special #shoutout to the homie, Vincent Enyeama.. You go boyy! (said in Martin Voice) it woulda been cool if he had stopped one or both of South Korea's goals yesterday (lol) but still he more than did well and deserves a medal/award for his overall performance which was nothing short of outstanding...
Oh (lol) and is it just me, or is this year's world cup is all kinds of strange? Like for instance France is out, due to some silly high-school female kinda drama (displayed by grown-ass men..smh), England's performance, nothing to write home about.. USA surprisingly doing well (another #shoutout to Oguchi!! the hottest hottie on the team) I think it's just luck though..lol.. And then Portugal's 7-0 win against N. Korea..haha.. Epic. How you gonna lose 7-0 in the world cup? Com'on boys.. (btw Ronaldo..*sigh*.. he can get it!)
My prediction for who get's the cup this year.. either Brazil or Argentina. I hope it's Brazil.. Even though Maradona makes me laugh everytime he comes on tv..lol
Anyways.. This was one long-ass 'random' post, huh.. I need to go now.. I know I'm supposed to have put up a post about working out and dieting, but my minds been kinda confused about them topics lately, so it's kinda hard for me to come up with something that makes sense.. But I will soon snap out of it, and get back on top of my gym game.. :-)
Hmmm... This is weird... I've got like a million and one things on my mind right now.. but still, I'm unable to come up with a topic to blog about... sad, very sad.. But oh well, i shall ramble on and talk about everything and nothing at the same time (it's a skill i have mastered)lol.
Okay first of, i'm going to talk about how there's too many 'wo-wo' guys now. Asin, they did nt try at all... Thank God I'm not looking for anyone atm.. cos i'd probably be frustrated as a mug...lol
Second, I'm going to ask/pose this question... why do some ugly as shit people think they have the audacity to feel/act fresh... I know they say, 'I think therefore I am'.. well, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and no matter how much YOU think you're attractive, if other people do not agree or think the same way..lol.. Let me tell you a secret, be humble, even if you as foine as Tyrese or Tyson, don't feel like everyone has to complement your swagg..lol.. #random
Then I shall talk about how it's almost as if monogamy is nothing but a myth these days, and it's almost as if people are required/expected to be unfaithful.smh.. And how I was talking bout how it would be difficult for me to be a marriage counselor right now, cos when people come to me, i'd go, "I'm so sorry for your distress. However I do know a really good divorce lawyer..."lol.. Which is really bad, because like i think divorce is wrong, very wrong, on every level.. but i donno..lol.. anyways,, #ontothenextparagraph..lol
I think I tweet too much and i'm gonna 'tweet' a few lines from a past TT (trending topic-lol) '#iconfess'..
1. #iconfess i kinda suck at relationships...lol.. working on that though.. :-)
2. #iconfess i'm not a naturally nice person.. have/had to work at it..
3. #iconfess i actually like being by myself... and get irritated when i have to be around people i dont like for too long (i.e for more than 5 minutes)
4. #iconfess sometimes i get 'drawn' to some people, and want them to be around me 24/7 and when they aint, i miss them like ish.. :-(
5. #iconfess i make mistakes like all the time.. but in a way, i think people learn better by making mistakes and getting burned so to say.. still, i'm earnestly working on becoming the best version of me..
6. #iconfess that i hate talking.. but at the same time i hate silence! i love it when people talk to me.. :-)
and last but not least,
7. #iconfess that half the time i'm talking, i have no idea what i'm going on about..haha
anyways, i'm tired of rambling.. i'm gonna put two songs i'm really feeling (lol) at the moment; Usher's there goes my baby.. Love that song. And Gyptian's Hold Yuh.. that song makes me wish i knew how to dance properly.. *sigh*.. have to go now.. gots shits to sort out.. (mostly get something to eat.lol) and things to do... It's gonna be a long day.. :-)
~the increasingly sexy~
o.a.o
ps: I know i'm supposed to have written a post about working out... it's long (and i'm lazy).. promise to put one up today/tomorrow.
This is a question I ask myself daily and I am now posing to you. When oh when, daughters of Zion, are you going to stop settling and start making choices? When I say choices, I mean active choices that reflect what you want and not what you think you can do ok wit. Key word here is OK How many people wanna do just OK in life? You just wanna do OK, not great?? Didn’t think so. So why on God’s green earth do you go about making OK choices? Can you please be proactive about your own life? I mean, I mean even if you don’t care about other people can you please care about yourself???
What exactly is she on about? , You ask. Well, my question is why do women settle? I’ve been asking myself this question for about a week now. And it just won’t leave me, no mater how hard I try to suppress it so I decided to devote some time to address it.
In the words of another one of my friends, it’s because women are always doing the most. What does it mean to do the most? Doing the most means you are excessively invested in something to the point where you begin to embarrass yourself (caveat: for those of you who still have some shame left; Lord knows many ladies can’t even pretend to have any left). When you do the most, may I just point out to you that you end up looking damned THIRSTY! (I will not go into what the specifics of being ‘thirsty’ are today. That will be addressed on a different day and through a different medium. When will you ladies start reading the writings that have been on the wall since the Old Testament? When will the scales fall from your eyes? When will you start actively making choices instead of just settling and going with the flow? Clearly, a man who is not as reliable as one of your friends should be sacked as soon as possible. As a human being myself (I’m actually not a Martian, contrary to popular belief), I don’t believe in setting impossible standards for guys. Not because my standards aren’t high. But because one fine day just like this one, I realized that many men don’t even pass the base standards we have when we decide who will be our friends or who will be a mere acquaintance; why then bother my pretty head trying to think up new hurdles for a dog that cant seem to learn old tricks (or more aptly, cant even learn the warm-up routine?) It’s as simple as that, no need to get your panties in a wad trying to ‘test’ your man.
This naturally leads to the question of respect. Anyone with a brain in his or her skulls knows that whatever you cannot live with you should never condone. If there are things bothering you now, can you please cut yourself loose like right now?? Someone who knows they can get away with doing bad by you needs to go HOME. Like right now too. Where is it written that you need to accommodate foolwangery and settle for bullshit??? Can you please take some action and boot the dude?? When your gut tells you that you’re being disrespected/taken for granted, you probably are. So can you move on please?? Some common examples include but are not limited to: a) Said ‘man’ is not really over his ex (this one should be a no-brainer but, cough-cough with the kind of thirst some girls are exhibiting nowadays…..) b) Said ‘man’ does not attempt to understand/respect how you feel about certain issues c) Said ‘man’ does not attempt to correct errant behavior when he does bad by you but expects to just roll into motion like nothing happened. E.t.c, e.t.c
Note that I do not have a solution/ trick that solves any of these issues. I just know that if any of the above scenarios looks anything like yours, you do NOT have a man, so go ahead and live your life as though you were SINGLE. In actual fact, you probably are already on the way there so get some practice, ok. I’m not recommending bar/bed-hopping or any ungodly behavior; what I’m saying rather is that you should begin to make choices that will make you happy. Take charge of your own damn life and body, sack the losing bastard and reward yourself. When you are done with all of this, you will find that you are not so damn thirsty anymore (at least I’d like to hope). And this will be a good thing because thirsty is/was never a good place to be.
"Now, I aint saying she a gold-digger, but she aint messing with no broke niggas..."lol
This post is dedicated (lol) to a dear and special friend of mines (*blushes*) and sweetheart.. who kinda suggested it as a topic when i told him i was stuck and needed something to write about.. So here goes..
It's gonna be a tad difficult for me to write about this whole 'gold-digging' business, not because I am a gold digger (aww, hell naw, I am very grateful to God, that I got my own.. It is not by my power nor my might or anything I did, but by the Spirit, Favor and Grace of God.. :-) okay, back to the topic. It'll be hard, cos it kinda makes sense for girls to go after the guys who live the lavish life-style, cos think about it, who doesn't want that..lol.
I'm going to try and write about this from like both sides, i.e. from both a male and female perspective, but once again it will be a little difficult for me to do so.
For one, I don't see too many of these guys who are 'flossing' and getting all the girls complaining much.. I mean, that's partly why they're flaunting their money in the first place, to 'collect' girls/babes (lol).. Like all the high profile guys.. Politicians, Athletes, Wall Street dudes, Musicians and such they're all in it to get it so to say.. And if anyone of them should come to me and tell me that they actually believe that these tricks/heifers/hoes really do care about them or would talk to them if they had no 'loot'.. I would refer them to the nearest psychiatric hospital.. To be frank and honest, material possessions attract attention (whether wanted or not), from both sexes..
Now, I am NOT saying that guys (or girls, cos there are male gold-diggers, believe me, i have seen a few in my time..lol) shouldn't aspire to do great things, drive the fanciest cars or live in the biggest mansions... No, don't let anyone/situation stifle your dreams, BUT y'all should be able to filter and funnel the attention.. Know who loves you for you, and who loves you for what you got, and relate to each accordingly.
On the other hand, there's guys saying that girls only go after the lavish guys... and that the guys who are chilling and not so out there are getting the short end of the stick.. That is true in part, but see, these dude should see this as a good thing, cos I'm telling you, y'all don't want these type of girls.. trust me. These girls are 'dangerous'.. You know, like the Kardinal Offishal and Akon song..lol. They will suck a n!$$@ dry.. and not in the way he'd like..lmao!! Seriously though. They are evil.
I know I said I was going to try and write this from both sides.. and I take great pride in the fact that for the most part, I think very much like a guy.. But with this gold-digging business, it's kinda hard for me to..lol.. because I can't hate on the girls, it's not their fault.. It's like the way that flies are attracted to light.. they can't help it.. Its up to the guys to swat them away.. thing is most guys are weak.. thats the reason they will say it is 'natural' for a man to cheat? I'm like wth..? Why would it me more natural for a he than a she.. but lemme me get off that, less I digress.. That issue will be addressed in another post..
So yea, gold digging is BAD.. Ladies, don't do it. Fella's don't buy into it.. and if you do.. Tough luck.. You get what you deserve.. Come to me when you need therapy to deal with the emotional trauma/stress that comes with it.. and if you need a divorce counselor, I'm also available..haha. Okay, I'll be nice. I know it's not always peoples fault.. Like sometimes it's like the 'condition wey make the crayfish bend' (lol-that expression cracks me up) kinda situation.. so if it happens to anyone.. come and talk to me.. i'll lend you my shoulder to cry on..lol..
Okay, I kinda ran out of things to say on the topic.. and my good friend *coughs* is m.i.a, so I can't really ask him for his input.. But if i think of anything else.. I'll definitely do a follow up post.. I'm partly stuck cos was thinking about going to the gym.. (missed my yoga class cos I was writing this..lol.. so I hope y'all appreciate it!!)
Kk, I've got to go like NOW... gotta go workout and stuff.. of which, my next post might be about that.. like working out and living a healthy life-style.. taking a couple classes related to that, and i'm kinda obsessed with it atm.. lol. hope i stay that way.. anyways.. i'll definately be putting something up tomorrow. BYE!
...the fit and sexy...
.oao.
ps: here's a couple songs/video's (one from a female's point of veiw, and another from a males.. Enjoy.. :-)
Why do (good) girls like 'bad boys'? Guys that disrespect and treat them like crap? Guys who belittle them, laugh at their dreams and make them feel worthless, unattractive and like shit? They hold on to these guys and let the 'good' (or should I say better? cos I don't believe any guy is 100% good, he's probably just better than the next) slip away?
"I refuse to be a statistic". haha. At the risk of 'chasing' any potential guys away...lmao.. like really though.. They say that it's 'love' and that it's one of those circumstances where the heart neither listens to nor sees reason and fails to think logically... Well i say f**k that. Broken hearts, painful as they may be (and i know quite a bit about 'heartbreak'/heartache).. heal with time. They may leave behind scars, some of which may be permanent, but scars fade with time and become 'less visible'... And I believe that when the right person comes along... i.e. when you find 'true/real love' (whatever that its... if it really does exist) they will make you forget all about the pain and negativity you endured... but if you stick with the wrong person, 'because you don't want to be lonely'.. you rob yourself of that opportunity. I'm not saying that this so called true love is guaranteed, or that you will find it when you want... all i'm saying is that it is better to try to look for it and fail, than not to try at all... that's my position on the subject anyways.. and its also better to be alone, than to be with someone who you know in your heart is not right for you... someone who you wake up every morning asking yourself why....lol
So who is the right person? What qualities/traits/characteristics does he/she have? What is true love supposed to be or feel like? I shall address all these questions in a later post.. (yes, i'm keeping y'all in suspense so you come back..haha..jokes.) But all I can say right now is that all those things mean different things to different people at different times.. (does that make sense??lol). And finding someone whose ideals fit yours (not necessarily being identical or congrual to yours) is a step in the forward direction.
Basically, all i'm trying to convey/say is that you should not put up with some idiot's b.s in the name of love... because that's just #lame..haha
Anyways... I gotta go to the gym now... Apparently (apparently) I'm starting to become/look fat..? that sucks ass... and is highly depressing... and it's like the more i try to starve myself, the worse it gets (apparently).. anyways... i shall moan about my body issues later.
Oh, and btw this post is not about anybody in particular... just been doing a little thinking lately, that's all..
~*~the ever sexy (despite what the haters and critics say..)~*~
okay, so i know i haven't written anything in a while (again!!)... been busy with school/life etc.. Have had a rough year so far. Been through a lot- emotionally, mentally, psychologically, spiritually, physically and such.. It's been hard, but 'I'm still standing' (like Monica-lol) so i guess i shouldn't complain, huh.
Anyways, i want to rant! lol. Like just because i act like everything is peachy/all good don't mean it is. I tend to hide/cover up my feelings/emotions... and i don't know why. I think one of the best ways to describe myself is 'a tortured soul'. It's sad, really. Sometimes i cry- on the inside, though-lol... I think my heart bleeds through my eyes... so it's not really tears, per say, it's more like colorless 'heart blood'.. like my 'icebox' is leaking...haha. It's the means through which i express the pain i feel on the inside. Don't ask what is making me hurt, 'cause i couldn't tell you even if i wanted- that's possibly what makes it all so sad/bad.
Anywayss what triggered the writing of this post? Well, some people been focusing on and highlighting my more negative qualities lately, and it's starting to piss me the f**k off. Like, sure, i have some quirks, but i like to think that i am perfect in my imperfections. Do i think i need to change? Yes. Do i want to? Not so much. Change is hard/difficult/tasking. But i do know i will get better, with time... "Give me time, baby. Give me time."...*sigh*
It's like always one thing or the other. Fuck. I have issues, sue me! Did anyone think for one second that there is a reason behind my actions/ways of thinking?? There is method to my seeming madness, like i always say. I have been hurt/burned by people whom i had trusted or liked... but that's another story for another day/post/. I've let that go though, and hold no grudges, cos that would counterproductive and rather unhealthy.
I try to protect/shield my heart from further hurt/pain by not 'feeling', and people read this the wrong way. The best way i know to protect myself is by not caring... and the sad part about it is that i've gotten so caught up in the self protection/preservation jazz that it spills over into my everyday life. Like, apparently i'm so hardhearted that i don't smile anymore (even when i think i am..lol) and i don't laugh much either...(?)
I find it difficult to show/express emotions (-shocker!lol) even to people that i supposedly 'like'/'love' and that doesn't help the situation much, 'cause they come to think that i don't care, when i actually do... a lot too. And yea, it's pretty fucked up. There's sometimes when shit happens and i'm like "I should be upset" or "I should say something right now" but I'm not and i don't. I don't know why... I guess i'm kinda numb on the inside. And sometimes when the 'pain' gets too much and I cry/'bleed', (lol) i get even more numb afterwards.
Anyways y'all I think this has been a pretty depressing/sad/all too revealing post (don't you think?) So i'll stop here. I should like go do something to lift my spirits. hmm... But i hope people understand me a little better after reading this. Anyways (i say that word too much, i know..lol) here's a quick shout out to every and any one who hurt me or made me cry-- Thank you.x
Peace y'all. Promise my next post (which should be up by the end of the day) will be more positive/happy sounding :-)
Okay... So what to write about? hmm... I know I said I had a lot to talk about/get off my chest. But I haven't got the time to divulge. Got shits, I mean, stuff to do (gotta watch my potty mouth.. i'm starting to cuss too much) and plus I'm not in the mood/disposition to 'bare' my soul, so today i'm just going to 'coast' and write about nothing (too important)
So.... Has anyone seen Erykah Badu's ' Window Seat' video?? Dang that woman has got a booty on her...lol (sue me, i'm an 'ass girl', I am fascinated by and appreciate a good 'dunk' and she's got an awesome one) but seriously though, if you look beyond the nudity and try to get the message that she is trying to communicate, she's actually spot on. People do not readily accept individuality and they tend to adopt popular/conventional thought/belief and take it as it is given, with out taking the time out to think if it actually is right/wrong for them. Most human beings are confined to a box, and seldom exercise their right to thing outside of it.
Don't get me wrong, I think 'Group think', (the topic of the video), can be a good thing... imagine a world in which there were no laws/rules and people were allowed to do as they pleased/thought right... I mean, if everyone was like me (lol) the world would be a MUCH better place, it'd almost be like heaven on earth... But the reality is that there are a lot of twisted, psycho people out there, people whose moral compasses' are screwed and who would more likely than not fuck things up (Hitler/Bin Laden/etc)
People should not conform, they should exercise their creativity in ways that would help, not destroy or damage the world. I have been called a 'rebel' (lol-imagine, lil' ol' me..) because I refuse to do as told/expected (mostly cos i don't see the point/agree..lol.. other times cos i just can't be bothered) But i'm like, it's my life, i should be able to live it how i want, you know, without people judging my every move/decision.... Sure I may fuck up every now and then (okay most of the time..lol) I do appreciate it when people who truly love/care for me call me out on my bullshit- as in I'd probably be more screwed up without y'all.. but at the same time some people are just useless, with hurtful intentions... these people can like to.... yea. lol
So back to the video/song.... I think it takes major balls to strip like that, for real. and i applaud Ms. Badu for that. She's also very talented and shot the video in one shot, no retakes. My only 'qualm' is that she did it in the same place that JFK was like assassinated, and that might have been a tad disrespectful.. but i get it all the same. I love her though, been a fan ever since I can remember, and have you heard the woman speak, like in interviews and such? she really knows her stuff, no surprise her songs actually do say something and make sense..
Anyways, I'm out.. (this post was longer than i had anticipated for it to be).. need to go catch up on sleep now..lol. I will post a video of one of my fav. Badu songs.. 'Bag Lady'... I'm sure I will 'dissect' the song in a later post.. Oh and 'Tyrone' is another good song... Anyways, Enjoy!
Okay, I know, I haven't written in a bit... you know the drill, i'm sorry... life happens/happened... blah, blah.. i'm getting tired of my own excuses..*sighs* but oh well.. The real reason this time is that I've been in a mood (what's new, huh?lol) and haven't been assed to put nothing up... It sucks, I know.. But I'm learning to get over myself.. and not take things and people too seriously.. Anyways, I came across this (see below) recently, and it made me smile.. Hope it makes you smile too. :-D
(ps: promise, promise, promise to put something up tomorrow. I promise. Got some stuff on my chest that I gotta let out..hehe.xxx)
Here are some signs that you may not find anywhere else in the world except in Africa.
1. In a restaurant in Zambia: 'Open seven days a week and weekends.' (May be in Zambia, a week has nine days!)
2. On the grounds of a private school in South Africa: 'No trespassing without permission.' (Would it still be trespassing then?)
3. On a window of a Nigerian shop: 'Why go elsewhere to be cheated when you can come here?' (Talk of freedom of choice of where to be cheated from!!!)
4. On a poster in Ghana: 'Are you an adult who cannot read? If so, we can help.' (And how did they expect the person to read this?)
5. In a hotel in Mozambique: 'Visitors are expected to complain at the office between the hours of 9.00 am and 11.00am daily.' (No complaint.. I am no whiner!!)
6. On a river in the Democratic Republic of Congo: 'Take note: When this sign is submerged, the river is impassable.' (My foot!!! I won’t be able to read it when it is under water.)
7. In a Zimbabwean restaurant: 'Customers who find our waitresses rude ought to see the manager.' (Who has the problem here??)
8. A sign seen on a hand dryer in a Lesotho public toilet: 'Risk of electric shock - Do not activate with wet hands.' (No comment!!)
9. In a Botswana jewellers shop: 'Ears pierced while you wait..' (No, I will collect my ears upon returning from the next shop!!!)
10. On one of the buildings of a Sierra Leone hospital: 'Mental Health Prevention Centre.' (Risky! If mental health were prevented, tell me, would that nation not be full of lunatics??!! !)
11. In a maternity ward of a clinic in Tanzania: 'No children allowed!' (Where should they be born?)
12. In a cemetery in Uganda: 'Persons are prohibited from picking flowers from any but their graves'. (Spooky!!)
13. In a Malawi hotel: 'It is forbidden to steal towels please. If you are not a person to do such a thing, please don't read this notice.' (Where in the world is stealing not forbidden?? By the way, I have already read it though it's none of my business!!)
14. A sign posted in an Algerian tourist camping park: 'It is strictly forbidden on our camping site that people of different sex, for instance a man and woman, live together in one tent unless they are married to each other for that purpose.' (Some purposes are difficult to comprehend!! )
15. In a Namibian nightclub: 'Ladies are not allowed to have children in the bar.' (Do men have children?)
16. In a photo studio in Chitungwiza ( Zimbabwe ): 'Photos taken while you wait ' (Ouch!!! Can I leave my face and collect the photo later?) Talk of reasoning!
