"some say the x make the sex spec-tacular
make me lick you from yo neck to yo back the ya
shiver-ing, tongue deliver-ing chills up that spine
that ass is mines. skip the wine and the candlelight
no cristal tonight, if it's alright with you we ......"
"The whole, city is mine, prettiest don
I don't like the way P. Diddy did shyne with different lawyers
Why it's mentioned in my rhymes? Fuck it, it's just an intro
Hate it or love it. Like it, bump it or dump it"
LOL.. Y'all probably know where the first one is from.. but the second.. hmm.. I will personally deliver a prize to whoever figures it out.. Nah, scratch that.. Cos there's 'google'.. Anyways.. was listening to them songs and decided to write some of my favorite lines.. SUE ME.. Now to the topic du jour....
Okay.. So wait, you're supposed to forgive and forget.. give second chances.. is it really possible to let ish go when people treat you wrong.. like do you really forget? like really, really? I don't. I remember that ish. I may forgive based on the intention(s) behind the action(s).. but at the end of the day... its difficult to forget, for me anyways. in a way it's a good thing..lol.. (not really, but i'm going to justify myself, damnit!!lol) It's a good thing, because if i do 'forget' (which would be highly unlikely as i remember a lot of things i shouldn't) it simply means that the person is 'dead to me'.. like i would care less about them. loll.. Damn..
The way i work is, when i forgive, i cant help but remember the pain/hurt... but at the same time, i let it go. I use the person's fuck up as a bench mark with which i would compare the persons reformed performance...lol.. (i think i forgot the point i was tryna make)... But yea, I really want to learn to forgive and forget without anything else to it. I need someone to 'teachme'.. Oh well, i'll add that to the list of things i need to learn.
Like to me, the concept of forgetting can be likened to the incidence of a child putting his hand in fire/gets burned or whatever, and then completely forgets about the pain, and does it again.. Wouldn't you call that child dumb or stupid? Or at best mentally challenged or slow? I'm like that child in a way, only I'm wiser (lol).. I get burned.. I'm scared of or avoid fire for a while.. After that while, I may still 'play' with fire, but I'll know that there is a very high likelihood that that jawn will injure me. I think knowing or anticipating makes the pain less.. Because sometimes, the reason it hurts so much is cos you didn't see it coming, so the shock only amplifies the pain..?
Okay... I started talking (or writing) off point again.. I think I need to go now..... Yes, I do realize I haven't written anything in a while (over a month now) and it's cos of this... I get something good to write about.. start writing and then half way through I get lost or stuck.. *sigh* .. oh well. C'est la vie, right? I will overcome.
still confused, but ever so sexy
oao
