More randomness...

Hey y'all.. I think I'm going to stop apologizing for not posting as often as I should, because it is getting a little bit redundant, but I apologize all the same.

Originally I was going to put up a story I heard over the weekend, and wanted to share with y'all, but in the process of putting that up, I came up with something else. It is just a random piece and it isn't based on anyone or anything (there was no external inspiration behind it). Anyways Enjoy, ps: lemme know what you think about it. Thanks!!!

This is dedicated to..(lol)... Okay, here goes...

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She's going to smile through her pain,
and although it may rain,
and seem like her efforts are in vain,
she won't put the blame on anyone's name
She chose to play the game
and will lay no claim to say she was forced
to in it engage.




Once bitten twice shy,
This time I shant cry,
Though I did the crime,
Of falling for that guy,
'Cause his swagg was so fly,
I won't do the time,
No, not this time.


I will be alright, I will be fine,
And in due time I know I'll find,
A love so sweet, so divine,
But until then I'll speak my mind,
Try and try as you might,
You can't steal my shine,
No, you can't fade my smile,
'Cause through it all I will survive,
Like Gloria Gaynor I'll stay alive,


Been through the fire, through the rain,
Sometimes I thought I'd go insane,
But somehow, someway I still remain,
Uncharred, unburned by the flame,
Which was only fueled by my pain,
A pain so deep, So mundane,
By all standards considered inhumane,
Through it all I remained the same,
All this did was made me to see,
Just who exactly I'm destined to be.




hehe. That was written in bout 5 mins btw, randomly written too.. Anyways I gotta go. Have a long-ass day ahead of me... Dang, I miss my bed already. Hopefully won't be too tired when I get back, so I can put up the story I was talking about. Take care sexys and have a fabulous day (talking fabulous... has anyone listened to Fab's new album? 'Loso's Way'? apparently there's supposed to be a movie too... It's been a minute since I did a music-inspired post, maybe I'll do one later..) Bye!

~*~still-sexy~*~

.oao.

Procastination is a........ (fill in the blank-lol)

*backdated* this was meant to have been posted on Sunday.. my bad!*

Hey y'all... 

Okay, so I'm like in a chirper mood today. And guess what? Yesterday did end on a happy note :-)

I played 'truth or dare' over the phone for the first time yesterday, and it was really cool... Like at one point, when I was almost tired of telling the truth, I said dare... big mistake.. hehe.. anywayss.. This post was written about two weeks ago, however laziness and other preoccupations prevented me from putting it up.. 

Okay, so if you haven't noticed, I try not to put celeb gossip/gist on here (as this is not one of them-type blogs).. i may put up their songs and stuff... but oh well, crazy stuff's been happening and I aint got much else to write about atm..

Yea, so we all know that The-Dream and Christina Milian are engaged, right? and that The-Dream used to be married to Nivea (who happens to have bout 3 kids for him).. Well Nivea, apparently is preggers for none other than Mr. Dwayne Carter aka Weezy F Baby... And everyone knows that Lauren London is also preggers for him... Plus homie's got that little girl by 'Toya, (who watches 'Tiny and Toya' and is it just me or is Tiny rather unique looking?lol> no offense, she pretty and I love her character) the one that was onstage at the BET awards... He also apparently also had a baby earlier this year by some random chick.... I wonder how many kids he's got now (by how many different women, chill, how old is he again?) this just looks like a recipe for major baby-mama drama... dude must be paying some mad child support bills... whatever happened to "...safe sex is great sex, better use a latex cos you don't want that late text that "I think I'm late" text..." lol: anyways, its not really my business.. he's doing his thing..

In other baby-mama drama, Kelis, estranged wife of (arguably) the best rapper alive, Nasir Jones (aka Nasty Nas aka Nastradamus aka Escobar aka God's Son aka, QB's Finest-lol, i love doing that, listing all his names) has had their baby boy, Knight... As much as I love Nas, (and I really did love him) my respect for him is dwindling by the day.. Like really, dude wasn't going to pay homegirl nothing- no child support, nothing.. that's just trifling.. Anyways, its sorted. I hope they can work their ish out though, cos they make/made a cute couple.. And like too many people are breaking up these days... What would surprise me would be if a couple actually got married, and stayed together.. (other than Will and Jada, and even they.. hmm..lol). This is the end of this post.. I shall put up Mario's song, 'Break Up' (featuring Gucci Mane and Sean Garret)(just because..lol) on here, as well as this new joint I'm feeling 'Pretty Wings' by Maxwell on here... Maxy's soo sexy (like me!hehe) I think I might have to marry him.. after I'm done with Reesey (Tyrese) though.lol. Enjoy.

sexy*maxwell*lover

.oao.

So I went off on a tangent...lol

 

Detoxing…. With 2 days until the first phase of the process is a wrap, I shall take a moment to reflect on the occurrences of the past couple of weeks…lol.. On the reals though.. the detoxing ‘P’ was… let’s just say it could have been a lot  better.. but on the plus side, I came to realize some of the specific habits/traits I need to divorce. I also became more aware of my sexuality and sexual preferences/orientations… (yea, I said it!!! haha) Okay, I did, but not in the ‘I’m about to come out of the closet kinda way'… at least not yet anyways.. But at the risk of going off on a tangent, I kinda realize why some girls switch sides, and start to play for the ‘other team’ or rather their own team.. (scoring own goals and s**t..lol)!! Like really<<<<< original text removed by author :-) ..>>>>>> *sighs*…

 

And now I’m sad… cos my girlfriends went out without me!!! (I had to moan about it, cos they just called to rub it in..) Granted, I had had (lol) other plans… and it was a spur of the moment trip… I’m still not happy about it.. Okay, Enough bitching for one day, dangg!.. lol. I’m just in a foul mood today, and that’s bad, cos I felt on top of the world yesterday.. well until about 12am, when something happened..(lol)… Oh, well, c’est la vie, I guess. I will be alright, I know I will.. Anyways.. Happy thoughts, .oao., think happy thoughts! Lol..

 

Can’t think of nothing… I have a few back dated posts from last week (I wrote em in class.. class was long and boring.. had to do something other than sleep!!lol) plus what I originally planned on writing today… I shall put 'em up later on in the day.. and yea, hope y’all have a happy day… and I hope my day ends on a good note too, I need it!!! 'Till next time my sexies…

 

 

~*~always-sexy…~*~

.oao.

The Circle of Friends (plus another quick shout out)

Okay, so we did go on our highly anticipated road trip over the weekend.. and it was crazy mad!!! It woulda been madder if I hadn't gotten sick halfway through... but it was definitely a good one. Why? Because it was chilled.. the peoples were real and it was basically a laid back weekend which comprised of good food, good music, loads of picture taking (my least favorite part) and most importantly great company.. So yea, shout out to the whole crew! Y'all rock :-)

In other non-road trip related happenings... You know how I'd been lacking inspiration to get blog-worthy material? Well I got someone to guest write for me.. And what he wrote is soo good (and true!) that I will definitely be asking him to write some more stuff to put up... Here's his piece...

The Circle of Friends…

Isn't it funny how everybody seems to know everybody one way or another? Its quite cool but then again it has some extremely irritating facts. The most annoying of these facts is that it becomes exceptionally hard to find a girl or guy that hasn’t been with one of your friends. It is alarming to think that some people are not bothered at all that their girlfriend or boyfriend has gotten with one of their close friends. Even if the person they got with isn’t close to you… doesn’t that make it worse? This is not to judge anyone but it’s a looming factor that needs to be considered deeply as there is a future ahead and it will be difficult for some of us in the circle of friends to find an ‘untouched partner’ to form families and settle down with… but all that is in the long run.

In the short-run I have seen people who have been best friends from toddlers grow to hate each other in their late teenage years because of the opposite sex. Most people get into physical confrontations and arguments others go blow to blow like all they shared in the past is nothing cuz of this one girl or guy… to be honest, such people lack insight and common reasoning because if you analyse things beyond the ‘now’ you’ll find that this person you are fighting with because of a girl you’ve just met is someone you are bound to in more ways than one. You either know their parents and their parents know yours or you have mutual friends who will suffer the consequences of the argument. Would you really have the boldness to you’re your parents and the parents of your friend that you fell out over a girl or a guy? Does it even sound reasonable to you that you should throw away life long friendships away over girls?
Through personal experiences I have grown to understand that we all need each other in one way or another. Therefore friendships should be kept as much as possible. If your friends ex comes and says they’re feeling you, !cool! if you're feeling them too just let them know that you are but that you cant have anything with them because they’ve been with your friend. Also let your friend know how you feel about their ex but that you are not going to do anything about it cuz you know it will be awkward… I know things like this are easier said than done but you’d be a more respectable person with dignity if you avoid the drama and handle it in an honest way. In fact you too, how will you feel knowing the mouth your kissing has been handled or should I say ‘mouthed’ by your friend (no matter how close)… the thought alone it is DISGUSTING and REPULSIVE…

I’m not going to be hypocritical and act like I haven’t been there before… I have and then I was young and like you I lacked the insight. Truth is some people have never though about these things before. That’s why I’m putting this out! I’ve made that mistake and I look back and I hate it but still I’m not just going to say oh whatever I’ve done it I might as well continue… the best way to handle this dilemma of the circle of friends (which is now one big mess) is to stick to one guy and stop spreading your germs about!

AIDS IS REAL and SO IS HERPES just ask Rihanna and Chris Brown…

~still sexy~

.oao.

Why do guys lie?

lol. Million $ question, huh? But yea, was thinking about it... I mean, babes lie too, don't get me wrong, and when we do it's just as bad, if not worse but still...

Anyways, moving on to more important/interesting things.. Road trip this weekend! Should be fun.. I hope it is anyways.. Kinda need a little excitement in my life right now..

I'm steady on that detox 'P' (could be going better, but oh, well).. and one of the things I'm learning/have found out is that thinking is a good way to clear one's mind, funny enough.. or at least help sort things out and put them into perspective. Constructive thinking that is. And one of the things that's happening is that I'm starting to have a clearer picture of who my real peoples are and who the fake ones are... "He's phony, she's fake, thats the type of people I hate, If you're real and you know it clap your hands!" you know the Jada and Swizzy song? Yea... and it feels good.. yeah! (like the tony toni tone song.. dang, I listen to too much music!) Anyways it's great. The older version of oao woulda probably been hurt, but now it's like whatever.. water off the skin of a duck.. It's good to know who loves you for you and not just because... Then you can spend more time on the people that matter and build/develop those relationships...

Anyways once again, I think I have said a bit too much.. (?) Plus I need to go write a paper now.. Oh yea, it was Michael Jackson's funeral/memorial the other day.. Did anyone watch that? I didnt.. woulda been too emotional... R.I.P MJ... You were a source of inspiration to many generations and will surely be missed. Your legacy lives on...

Here's one of my favorite Michael Jackson videos.. Enjoy. :-)

.oao.

x

A quick 'shout out'

Detoxing... Day 1's going well... Most exciting thing about my day was that a very, very good and dear friend holla'd and told me that she felt what I was saying and that it was like I was speaking directly to her... That made my day! Thank you babes, luv yah! (that's my quick 'shout out', you know who you are..)

So yea, day 1 is going, going... Kinda excited about it. I don't really have much to write about (which sadly, is becoming a trend these days... maybe cos of all the school work I have to do.. of which I read a few articles for class that made me laugh/wonder... I shall definately be writting about that in the near future- don't worry, it ain't physics!lol. It was for an anthropology class- 'sex, gender and culture'..)

I feel like this post is wayy too short... But yea, I'll put up a song that I'm really feeling atm.. I've been listening to it non-stop for almost 2-weeks now! It's 'You Bad' by Wande Coal. PS: is it just me, or do W.C and T-Pain look like twins?! Anyways, the song is tew mad and is dedicated to all the sexies who read this blog and appreciate my 'work' (lol) y'all are bad (in a good way)! enjoy. J

*the 'bad' sexy one*

.oao.

                               

detoxing...

I made up my mind today to go on a two week detox… Typically, when people talk about detoxifying their systems, they usually refer to the food they eat and generally the things they allow to enter their bodies… I’m basically trying to detoxify my life as well as my body… I feel I have too many ‘toxins’ lurking in my life and I seriously need to do something about them… I’m not the person I used to/want to be, and that’s bad. I think I allowed people/things around me to change me- notice how I didn't  blame them, cos I let it happen, so its kinda my fault… I miss the old me though… The old oao, who didn’t like care about anything… and lived her life for God, herself and no one else… The oao who’d do what she wanted when she wanted without caring what anyone had to say about it… sighs… lol.. dang, I miss her, got to get her back! jk..

But do  you ever feel like you’re trying to do something/go somewhere but for some weird reason you can't.. no matter how hard you try, something always throws you off… Like “every time you try to leave something keeps pulling you back, you back…” but really though. I mean, they say sometimes for you to move forward you need to take a step (or two back)… kinda makes sense, so you can sort out any unfinished business, tie up any loose ends… It also makes you appreciate things more… cos like when you get where you want to be, you can remember what you went through to get there…  I guess that’s also why they say nothing good/worth it comes easy…

Okay, this is little but too much serious-type talk for one day… and y’all probably don’t even know what it is I’m talking about… lol.. But I hope people can somewhat relate to what I'm saying... Anyone who finds themselves in a similar situation shouldn’t feel bad.. cos I understand… Okay, um.. maybe u should feel bad, cos I've been told that I’m ‘different’ and 'special'.. lol. But really I think its normal and that if people want something bad enough and work at it relentlessly, they can get it.. "if you can dream it you can achieve it baby!" (that is how it's said, right??)

But yea, detoxing… let’s do this! 2 weeks… I’m not necessarily saying that I will get where I need to be in 2 weeks… but at least I will be closer… Anyways I need to go get ready for work… I shall holla… hopefully with something more interesting…. Oh yea, Happy (belated) fourth… hope y’all had fun… I know I (kinda) did...x

*sexy~sexy*

.oao.

random

okay, so I said I was going to put something up yesterday... but i couldn't due to unforeseen circumstances (lol) I got home at a time when there was only one thing on my mind... sleep!

But yea, I don't even really have much to say (weird huh?) I mean, the weather is nice and all..lol Oh, Okay! Yes, I remember a conversation I was having with cutie a few days ago and I was on that "all guys are shite" tip and "I can't ever trust one, cos they all eff up eventually.." And he was like no, that maybe I just talk to the wrong ones... that there's some decent guys out there... *coughs* err, where these decent guys at? cos I'm yet to come across one (no offense, and not that I've been looking) lol. Sometimes I wonder, I mean, I know I'm not the most perfect person... far from it. I've got soo many flaws, but at least I make an effort, I try.. if he's worth it... But most guys don't.

Oh, and there's one question I want to ask, I know its O.P (off point) but why do guys start acting different when they find out/think a babe is/might be into them? Like that ish sucks and is very high school-female behavior.. its real funny though, makes me laugh every time..but yea will address that later. was just wondering if anyone knows why (esp. guys!) holla and let a sister know...

But yea, back to the topic, I don't exactly think all guys are rubbish, I mean most of my closest friends are guys (love y'all!).. they've got my back more than most of my female friends do. But relationship-wise... i donno. I mean some are okay.. Maybe cutie was right. I'm just unlucky when it comes to these things..dang. lol. Anyways I'm late for a date! Got to go now.. Will holla... stay sexy, sexies.

~always sexy~
oao

Hey...

"I've been gone for a minute, now I'm back with the jump off,
Goons in the club in case somethin jumps off...

All we wanna do is party,
And buy everybody at the bar Bacardi,
Black Barbie dressed in Bvlgari
trying to leave in somebody's Ferrari
Spread love that's what a real ma do
Keep it gangsta look out for my people...

We the best still there's room for improvement
our presence is felt like a black panther movement.."

lol.. sorry for the randomness, the song was in my head... but yea, i know i've been gone for a minute... my bad. why? Um.. I was on vacation...lol. Okay, thats a dumb excuse.. I was jus plain lazy, there I said it! haha. I did write a bunch of stuff though, but just too lazy to post on here... anyways, hope y'all forgive me, and i promise (to try) not to do so again. :-)

Like I said, I have a bunch of back-dated ish to put up.. and may do that sometime soon... A LOT of stuff has happened since I was last on here.. Some of which I may not be able to say just yet, but will definitely keep y'all posted...

Well I g2g now :-( .. Just thought I should say a quick hello.. Oh, yea, before I go, just want to say R.I.P to the King of Pop, Mr. Michael Jackson...


To end on a lighter/happier note, did anyone see the BET awards on Sunday?! Like WTF, from Weezy perfomance with some seriously under-aged girls (i don't care if they were his daughter and her friends) to Ciara's performance.. Like really, how much did she buy her record deal for? I coulda sung that song way better and I don't even sing.. She killed the song.. and not in a good way at all.. She should stick to dancing. And Joe Jackson.... smh like really, self-promoting how many days after his son's death.. not in good taste. But for the most part it was a good show. Loved Jaime and Ne-Yo!!! And my baby daddy, Tyrese... *sighs*.. let's just say I slept well that night..lol.. anyways, got to go make sense of some physics assignment... will be back later in the day... 'till then, remain sexy, people.

*the ever sexy mrs. t. gibson*

~oao~