Random reflection of moi...

Life... I intended to put something up yesterday; but due to... um, okay...... lol. well, something came up and I was unable to...

What am I gonna write about today... hmm... I'm in a bad mood.. well i was earlier (I'm good now:-) been in it for a minute too.. donno why neither.. But oh well, c'est la vie.. Just gotta learn how to deal with it, innit?

This post is going to be very self-revealing/random btw.. cos i'm in a random state of mind.......

I just realized/discovered what I want to be 'when I grow up'.. well one of the things anyways (random fact#1)- i aint gonna write it on here... cos its sure to stir up some controversy/make people think i'm all the more crazy than i am.. and we don't want that, do we?..lol

Um... what else.. I had written a blog post about how and why I don't like (most) people much, (you know the pathology of and reason behind my agoraphobia) but I can't find it right now :-( will look for it and post it soon as I find it.. It should make people understand me a lil' better, i hope... just a lil though..lol. (random fact #2)

Ummmmmmm... I cry sometimes (sometimes) for no reason... And I just figured out why.. (I think a lot..lol) its 'cause I bottle up/hide my emotions and 'feelings' and what-nots and keep it all inside; so when I cry its to let it all out; kinda like to empty my 'emotion bank' so that I can fill it up again with more crap and b.s... yayy me!!-lol- no really though, the system works quite well for me, and 'if it aint broke, dont fix it', right? (random fact#3)

Random fact #4... I'm scared of a lot of things..*blank stare*.. okay, I lie. I'm fearless like Jazmine Sullivan, bring on the lions and tigers and bears, i'll take em all.. at the same time even... I aint scurrrrred..lol. But somethings 'perplex' me though. In actual actuality, I used to be scared of only one thing, but then it happened, and happen again.. and again... and again... and (you get the point) so while it still hurts a tad, i'm kinda getting used to it... and i know that one day i shall be totally over it - random, i know..

Random fact #5 (and the final one for this post cos i feel like i done gone and wrote too much already..) i'm a very shy person...- SHOCKER!-lol Always have been, probably always will be.. many people think i'm a snub/stuck up bitch as a result.. but nah.. i'm just shy.. (usually, sometimes the latter two things maybe true, but only when called for...) hehe.

Just thought of at least two more random things, but will include em in a later post (not the next one, so 'stay tuned' and keep coming back if you wana find out... :-p

Anyways I'm out... Someone cooked me dinner tonight.. don't remember the last time that happened... and it actually looks good.. bout to go tear that joint up..lmao.. that sounded very 'local'... anyways.. peace y'all. will be putting somn up tmrw... peace! :-)

...the random but still sexy...

oao

Still grown and sexy...

Okay, I know I've been m.i.a for a hott ass minute (more like a blazing hour.. geddit?lol) and i won't be surprised if no one even reads this anymore :-( (-not like very many people did in the first place..) but yea, it's been really and truly my bad. I thought I needed to take time of from a lot of things (including blog) to find out where my head was at and position and point it in the right direction, so I made an attempt (unsuccessful though it was) to do so. However, I never stopped writing- cos "its my therapy when I'm losing sleep, which is usually.." (I'll pay money to anyone who can tell me what song thats from...)

Anyways, yea, I'd put up some of the stuff I wrote, but its like too 'deep' (shocking!-lol) yes, oao has a deep/sentimental side to her much as she tries to hide it... (yea, i'm speaking of myself in the third person... and what?!lol) Moving onnn..lol.. I think I missed 'blogging', and so here I am! (like Rick Ross and Avery Storm said..haha-okay need to stop with lame jokes..) And even if no one reads (i really hope people DO READ this though.. :-) I'll keep on keeping on...

Okay... I gotta go do something right now.. And I know this post didn't really communicate much in terms of facts and stuff..lol..(i like to speak English)... Let's just say it's my intro/announcement of my return!! I shall put up some more 'substantial' stuff soonest.x

~still sexy~

.oao.