Heyyyyyyy!!
Lol.. so i havent been on here in a minute... My bad... been busy with school.. life.. same old song..*sigh*... I had written a post previously... but 'someone' read it the wrong way.. so i kinda had to take it off.... and then i started writing another one earlier today.. cos i had A LOT on my mind... but i decided not to put it on here anymore.. cos it was kinda #deeeeeeep.. and like i was about to put an asshole on blast.. but decided to chill on that... for now.. and it was one of them motherfuckers too... whoosahhh.. you shoulda talked to me like 2 hours ago... i was on a whole 'nother tip.. like 'fuck em niggas, i dont give a damn bout these niggas'.. *Weezy voice*.. but like i talked to someone who i know like cares about me and he made me feel better... and like one of my best best (yea, said that twice-lol) friends from like high/secondary school holla'd at me like just now... and like i aint talk to him in a minute.. so yea, that kinda lifted my mood a little... just a little bit though...
I still feel like crap. :( last night was like, the worst night i've had in agesssss!!! like i really dont get the way some people's brains operate... like where they do that at... honestly.. but like i said, i shall not delve into that... not here.. and not just yet... maybe later.. just maybe... cos the post i wrote on it... ooooh chil'... *deep breath*....
Anywayyyysssss! I kinda have a long day ahead of me... one i was kinda looking forward to until last night which yea... not gonna describe it again.. but yea... I should like do something like workout now before i go... but like... i dont feel like moving.... I just want to lay in my bed all day... and cuddle with Tyrese...(thats my 'cuddly'..*blankstare*) haha!! okay... enough of that 'emosh' display.. but you get the picture. I'm pissed as *!**$%@$!$!... But yea... I should work out, cos i feel like i gained 50 pounds, when i needed to have lost like 100pounds.. so now i need to lose like 150pounds in like 4 weeks.. because i signed up for this thing...
But like my workout life has been.... lets just say its not what it was... I mean, i have school and work and all that.. but like that has always been there.. I always found a way.. I always found time.. But lately... I've been slippin' son... I dont know why. I'm supposed to be getting stronger... Not lazier... my body is supposed to be getting harder and sexier too!!! ughhh!!! i'm so mad at my self right now.. Not gonna eat for a week!! no jokes.. And working out used to be like my primary tension reliever too.. (it used to be writing.. but i stopped that.. got in trouble for that..long story...) but like yea.... i think i'm going to cry now...lol.. and i think like not working out is what has made me like things get to me more... damn.. gotta fix that, huh...?
*sigh* anyways... (yea, i said that again.... what?!lol) so what i fell off for a minute... i'm bout to climb back on top that horsie...lol.. and for the first week i shall chronicle my journey (on the horsie..lol) everyday... yup.. i'm making a commitment to blog everyday (about my 'diet' *blankstare* and exercise routine) for 7 consecutive days... haha.. sounds like jokes to me right now.. but i shall.. and may be i shall also input a little bit of 'juicy' info that i pick up along the way... lolzers (yup, i said that too... what?!)haha... okay... i would say that the fact that my blood sugar is low, and my brain aint getting enough sugar/glucose, is the reason i'm chatting (or should i say typing) nonsense... but like... haha.. yea.. I just ate.. and I just ate A LOT too.. (i do that sometimes when i'm mad/stressed/angry-bad, i know but oh well.. we all have our weaknesses/flaws right? i'm bout to fix that one though.. watch me)
But yea.. like i said, i've got a looooooong day ahead of me... I need to start getting ready... both physically and mentally. plus i feel like i've 'shared' too much... and someone (just someone) might think i'm crazy *shrugs* oh well.. i would say i don't care.. but i actually kinda do.. but then again i can only be me... so yea... gotta love and leave y'all... for now.. will be back tomorrow with updates...haha.. hopefully... (remember.. the diet/exercise thing..?) but yea.. 7 days.. hope y'all dont get tired of me...
deuces...
~*~the forever and ever and ever sexy (and maybe a tad bit too random)~*~
.oao.
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